Friday, February 25, 2011

Letter to Mother Nature About her cruel child called Jack Frost

Dear Mother Nature,

While I understand the need to go on vacation from time to time, I must in good conscious ask you this question. Is it necessary to leave Winter in charge? I mean really, Jack Frost has been nothing more than an unruly child with a very serious need for a time out.

I know we all raised our children as we see fit. However, mine do not feel the need to throw ice at my head nor do they feel the need to hold me hostage in my home while pelleting my house with snow.

We have a serious problem here and are in desperate need for your assistance. Please put Jack Frost in a long time out so that he may learn that everything doesn't need to be covered in ice and snow.

Though we humans do enjoy a bit of the fluffy white stuff covering the world. We do also miss the warm sun and your beautiful flowers. Please keep this in mind when you go on your next vacation.


Joann (human)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

HEART BEAT~~The Dance (cont'd)

I looked into his warm deep earth green eyes. I wanted to yell at him for coming into my life. I wanted to say to him, "Why did you descend from the heavens in front of me?" I didn't though. I stood in the kitchen and waited for him to answer.

"I know you heard me, " I said. The images of him floating through the rays of light were like needles in my mind.

The words, ethereal to solid danced upon the razored edge of my mind where my own reality tried to cling on to existence. I knew what I saw and heard. He came from above and he knew my name.

He stood there calm, muscles relaxed with a bit of amusement on his face. I still wanted to scream because I knew I wasn't crazy. He moved across my kitchen floor like he was floating.

"I can't tell you," he said. "Once you know, there's no turning back."

"I'm not afraid," I said.

My heart pounded so hard and loud I'm sure it sounded like a Harley Davidson was sitting in the middle of my kitchen. Feelings of anger and desire exploded in my soul. Part of me wanted all the answers to my questions while the other part...well, it didn't care what the answers were. That part just wanted to feel his arms wrapped around me again.

"Elizabeth," he said.

"Yes," I asked.

"Can I have the water please?" he asked.

I didn't want to hear leave it alone. Why leave it alone. I knew what I saw.

"I'm not afraid you know. You can't be afraid of something if you don't believe in it," I told him.

"You don't believe in what?"  he asked.

"Superstitious stuff," I told him.

He took my hand. "Close your eyes," he said.

Shocking images of a world unseen touched my soul in such a way that I shivered. I found myself standing in the middle of a mist. A fire imploded from the middle of the mist. A giant creature whose skin was the color of brazened brass and a wing span so large, I felt minuscule compared to it. It had the face of a lion and the hands of man. In it's eyes, I saw the world. Then the galaxy where our small planet resided in the stars.

Samuel wrapped his arms around my body causing my breath to leave my body. We stood a breath away and I, oh how I wanted to feel him even more. Streams of electric shock waves flowed through my veins. My body quivered.

"Is this what you want to know?" he asked. "Are you afraid now?"

I looked deep into his eyes. "I'm not afraid. I know you're a good person," I said.

"I'm not a person at all. I'm an angel. Now that you know, I mean really know. Your life will never be the same as long as I'm in it. I think it's best if I leave," he said.

He let me go. My legs barely able to hold up my body, I shook a little and tried to recover by grabbing my counter.

"Will I see you again?" I asked.

"I'll be around," he said.

He walked to my front door and walked out. He was gone in a blink, leaving me to contemplate all he had shown me. Was it all real? Did he just drug me and that was a bad trip?

Irulan, I didn't know then that there were forces so evil they could turn a soul to literal dust. I also didn't know the being I saw could swallow worlds. I knew evil existed. I mean the world was full of evil in the form of murderers, thieves and even more unimaginable human evil. The spiritual evil that existed, that was a whole other reality. My life was changed from the moment I watched Samuel descend from within the rays of light. I was never going to be the same. The dance between us began that day.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

The Outsider By Jazzmyne Klear

I'm proud to say this is my daughter. She is an awesome artist and now a poet. When she wrote this and showed it to me I almost cried. Thank you for letting me share this with the world. You are so talented. I love you girl!!

By Jazzmyne Klear

Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, you're pounding on the fault line
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this

Such a mess. Why would I want to watch you.
Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence

Lying through your teeth again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, you're pounding on the fault line
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Go with this, why do you wanna throw it away like this

Such a mess. Why would I wanna watch you...
Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time

What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you
They were right about you

Lying to my face again
Suicidal imbecile

Think about, you're pounding on the fault line
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, I'm over this, over this!

Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere far away from here

Monday, February 14, 2011

Ascending with an Angel

A soft glittering sprinkle of moon-light drifted in through the window where Kayla stood. She wore a light satin robe that just barely covered her shoulders. She lifted her hand to her lips trying to relive the long kiss she shared with the stranger from her dreams all the while wondering if he was even real. Her lips did feel like they had been kissed.

On her bed was a black bedspread with red sating embroidered paisley pattern. Giant pillows layered the head of her bed and a matching dust ruffle floated across the floor. The mocha colored walls in her room echoed shadows from the small Victorian lamp. The crystals that lined the lamp shade cast several rainbows on the walls around her.

Kayla walked back to her bed and laid down. Her mind blazed with images, trying to recall who the man was from her dreams. Every face she pictured gave her an empty feeling because she knew it wasn't him.

‘If it was real, where are you?’ she pondered out loud.

“I’m right here.” A deep sweet voice said.

A million shimmering tiny blue balls of light appeared before her. When the light faded, a tall man with eyes as green as the grass stood in front of her.

She sat up, holding her covers up to her chest. “Who are you?”

He stepped forward and sat on the edge of the bed. “I have been visiting you every night since I saw you standing by the fountain. You are the most beautiful mortal I've ever laid eyes on.”

Still unsure if what she was seeing was real, Kayla closed her eyes.

"Please be real," she whispered.

“Open your eyes,” he whispered back.

Hesitant, Kayla opened her eyes slow without looking up. She felt his finger beneath her chin pulling her head upwards. She looked up and saw a marvelous span of wings that glowed with the most beautiful golden light. Kayla took a deep breath in. She reached up to touch his wings. The tops of them were soft like the feathers of a bird. The tips of them were sharp as a razor. His skin was hot to the touch.

Kayla held her breath. “Are they real? Are you real?”

“Yes,” he said.

The soft glow from his wings ran up her arm. She felt a rush of warmth and excitement flash in her body. Lost in a trance, Kayla looked deep into his eyes and wavered a little. She had never seen anything so beautiful in her life. 
He brought her hand to his lips. She brushed off the feeling of her quickening pulse. Electric. Hot. Soft.

“Why?” she asked.

“You felt me. No one ever feels me,” he replied.

“What do you want?” she asked.

“Nothing you don’t want to give,” he replied.

She looked deep into his eyes. There was a whole eternity of good and evil locked inside them. They held a wealth of love and even moments of deep pain. So much of everything…too much all at the same time. She leaned in towards him. ‘Are you real? Am I dreaming? You have so much love and danger locked inside your eyes.’ Her body quivered with excitement. Every pore had a longing to feel more of him.

He leaned in, they were a breath away.  Her mind filled with want and desire. He closed in on her mouth. Such a sweet taste of honey and strawberries filled her senses. He kissed her neck hard and deep with passion. She moaned with joy and longing. He ran his hand along her thigh and she wanted more. With his mouth, he suckled her breast sending s streak of lightening through her very soul. When he came down on her, she was sure she was going to explode.

Both of them moved together, sending her deeper and deeper into the throngs of pleasure and pain. Her mind exploded with adrenaline and she raised up to cover his mouth again. Passion, more than she even knew, filled her body and she let loose all she had inside. Oh such sweet joy from the moment filled her soul. She never felt anyone like she felt him. She cried tears of joy from the pleasure he brought her.

He rolled over onto the bed. His body had a silver moon light sparkle to it. He kissed her once more, sending electric shocks of passion through her body. Such sweet wonderful joy was given to Kayla, one like she had never known. Her whole life she had been waiting for passion to take her away.

He took her by the hand and lead her off the bed then wrapped his arm around her waist and lifted her off the ground. Together they flew out of the window. Soaring high into the night sky, Kayla looked down at the ground and for a moment, she felt small in the world.

The wind brushed through her hair from the flight. He took her higher and higher into the air and stopped just above the clouds. A whole other world surrounded her, covered in white. Kayla felt him staring at her. He stretched his wings out and they floated down towards her window. He placed her on the bed. She looked up at him.
“Will I see you again?” she asked.

“I'm always here,” he said.

The alarm clock went off at six am on the dot. She was sure it was all a dream when she opened her eyes. When she got out of bed to take a shower, a golden feather fell on the floor. Kayla sat down in shock with one thing on her mind.
‘It was real.’

Friday, February 11, 2011

Heart Beat~~The Dance~~

Sweet gentle snow fell like a million white feathers from the sky on the second night I had a run in with your father. There are no words to express how many butterflies raced through my body.  He came up behind me when I was unlocking  the door to my apartment. I jumped and dropped my keys  when I heard the deep calm voice that sent an electric shock through my system.

Blushing. Embarrassed. Shocked. I turned around to greet the angel whose face and voice I couldn't get out of my mind. I chided myself on more than one occasion about this.

"Oh, it's you. Hello," I said in a cold voice.

What I really wanted to do was run into his arms, but I didn't. I played it cool. I knew what I saw and I didn't want to be reminded of how stupid I sounded when it came out.

"Yep, it's me," he said, bending over to pick up my keys.

His green eyes shined bright in the darkened night, so much so that I almost melted when I looked into them. I avoided eye contact for that reason. Instead, I fidgeted with the keys in my hand. I was so annoyed with the fact that I wanted to behave like a silly swooning school girl. How could I let myself fall for this man who wasn't a man? Why would he even want me? There wasn't anything special about me. I was short. I didn't have pretty blue eyes, nope, I had brown. I also didn't have that "grace" some other women had when they walked into a room. I was not someone an angel would be interested in.

"What are you doing, stalking me now?" I asked.

"No. I just wanted to see you again. We didn't end on a good note the other day," he said.

"Well, I know what I saw. So as long as you're willing to say it was all in my head, that's how it's going to be," I told him.

I heard my own voice yell in my head. What are you crazy?  He's handsome. Sweet. Gorgeous and an angel so he probably can't or won't hurt you.

I ignored the voice and turned the key in the lock. "Well, it's cold out here. I'm going to go inside. Is there anything else?"

A smile formed on his face as if I amused him on some level. Thanking my lucky stars it was night, I blushed again. The fluffy snow blanketed my feet.

"I would prefer to talk in private. If that's ok with you?" he asked. His mannerisms were slow and calm.

I thought about it for a second. What could he tell me that I didn't already know and how would I know if what he said was true? A sense of self doubt filled my soul. I knew who I was and here Samuel was making me question my own instincts. I hated that more than anything else.

A chill filled my body and my teeth began to chatter. "Ok, fine. You can come in, but if you make one wrong move,  I have to warn you, I have a gun,"  I told him.

He laughed at that, but stepped into the door behind me. I turned the light on and hung my coat up. My heart pounded so hard and loud, I was sure again that he could hear it. My mind fell apart for a moment. All I could thing of was what it would be like to touch his hand or have him hold me in his arms again like he had in the field the day we met.

He stood next to the door with his long black coat on without saying a word. For a second I thought maybe he was just unsure of what to do. I put my keys on the small antique table next to the door. The walked into the kitchen. "So, do angels eat or drink?" I asked.

A smile formed on his face, "I don't know about that, but water would be good," he said.

"Fine," I said. "Water it is."
"I'm not going to get you to admit you were just faint and passed out, am I?" he asked.

"No. It's just, I know I'm not crazy," I said.

"No one would believe you," he said.

"I wasn't going to say anything. I just need to know that I'm not losing my mind," I said.

He took a deep breath in and let out a sigh. "You have no idea what you're asking for. When you know, there's no going back and the evil that shows itself to you is worse than anything you can ever imagine," he said.

To be continued in a soon to be published version...I hope...

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Heart Beat~~Evil Surrounds~~

Like the morning sun, your eyes shined with a deep glowing love  for life. Just looking at your perfect face and little hands filled me with such a protective force, I didn't want the nurse taking you for the normal tests. How could you have normal tests? There wasn't another child like you on the entire planet.  Samuel went with you. What if you were never returned to me?

 Just the thought of losing the two of you caused a deep ache to penetrate my body and I, oh how I cried. What should have been a moment full of joy fill me with more fear  than I had ever known.

Samuel walked in with you coddled in his arms and then placed you in mine. He leaned in and kissed me on the forehead and still I cried. You slept while my tears dropped on your little blanket.

"They can't have you," I whispered when I kissed you on your small rosy cheeks.

Then he did what he always did when I cried.  He kissed the tears on my cheek and whispered, "Shh, it will all be ok."

I looked up at him and smiled. What more could I do than that? The warning from the other angel flashed through my mind.

"We will come for her when the time is right."

"They can't have her," I said.

"I won't let them take her from us. I swear it on my life," he said.

The lights in the room dimmed. A swarm of black flies swirled around us. I covered you with the blanket on the bed to protect you. Samuel put his right arm towards the ground and a sword made of lightening stretched from his arm. He stood in front of our bed and raised it into the air.

"Adrianna, why have you come?" Samuel asked.

The flies swarmed closer together until they were so tight they formed the shape of a woman. Small patches of skin melted up from within her. She had a long, simple elegant black dress. Her eyes, shaped like a cat's in a deep red color were pale against her fire colored hair.

"I just want to see the little one for myself. I'm here to give her a blessing," she buzzed with millions of voices.

Almost floating, she took a step towards us and Samuel lifted his sword to her neck.

"Step back. There will be no blessing from you, Adrianna," he said.

The room grew cold fast. Icicles formed on the ceiling above the two of us. They sounded like wind chimes on a flower filled spring day.

"Don't," Samuel's voice was stern and full of force.

"Do you really not want my blessing?" she asked.

"A blessing from you would be a curse. You know I won't allow it," he said.

The bed we were in began to shake. Icicles formed over our head and I hid you beneath the blanket as if it would protect you like some sort of magical shield. I felt my face redden with anger. What was this thing in our room? Why did she think it was necessary to invade what little precious time we had with you?

The icicles that shook over our heads sounded like wind chimes. It was such a sweet,  evil,  alluring sound that clutched the strings in my heart and wouldn't let go. I was frozen in time, mesmerized by the shear sight of it all.

This was not an angel before me. A single word came to mind, DEMON. The evil thing wanted not just bless you, she wanted to anoint you with a drop of evil. Strange as that sounded, you were born a blank slate. You had a soul and you still had a choice.
Samuel held his right arm to his side. A bolt of lightening stretched out from his hand and formed into a sword. He stepped in front of our bed, placing himself between us and her. I watched in horror as she stepped towards him.

Can an angel be killed?

"Relax, I'm leaving. You can't always protect them you know," Adrianna said. "Oh, and by the way. I thought you should know the big man is watching."

"I know," Samuel said.

The body of the creature melted away allowing the flies to swarm again. I waved my hands over you, trying to make sure none of them landed on you. Our nurse opened the door, and all of the flies disappeared in a flash of light. I looked up at the ceiling to see if the icicles were still there. Gone. Nothing. Like she had never been there.

"We've been having issues with the lights today. Maintenance is working on it. I'm sorry if it has caused you any inconvenience or given you a fright," she said.

I looked at Samuel and laughed.

"We're fine," I said.

I opened the blanket I hid you under and saw that you were still sleeping. You had not been bothered by the evil that entered the room. You were not afraid. How I wished I could be once again ignorant to the true evil of the world. We are surrounded by it everyday and we don't see it. We are immune to the shadows that dwell on the souls of others. That or we are so used to it that it doesn't phase us. I don't know. What I do know is the fear I felt during Adrianna's visit was just a taste of what was to come.

It was then that I knew you were born to a destiny I would never understand. I knew you were created for a reason. The only thing I knew was I had to protect you from all the evil of this world and another. I didn't know if I was strong enough to go against the forces of evil, but I knew I was your mom and everything in my soul said you needed me. Though I'm nothing but a simple mortal, I would prove to be more of an annoyance to the powers that surrounded us than they anticipated.

Still my sweet little Irulan, there is so much more to tell you. So many things you need to know so you can maybe one day understand why we did what we did. It was the only way to save you.  I just wanted you to know how important you to understand how much we loved you.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


Magical rays of sunlight penetrated the cloud covered sky on the day I met your father, Samuel.  I was standing in the middle of a field with my camera taking shots of the most stunning sky I had ever seen. The rays of light glittered with a life of its own that was both haunting and beautiful at the same time. I was sure if I stepped into it I would be carried away to another world.
Like the gentle sun and just as surreal, he floated down through the light. I watched him transform from ethereal to solid and was overwhelmed by it. Sure it was all a hallucination and I was losing my mind, I passed out. Moments later I knew I heard my name.

"Elizabeth," he said. His voice sounded like a whispered breeze.

Let me stay. Don't wake me up. I love the dream I'm in. An illusion with grace and all that I had secretly  longed for held me in his arms called my name. How was that even possible?

Afraid to open my eyes and see it was nothing more than a dream, I laid there while he said my name again.


I was caught off guard by his beauty when I opened my eyes, His skin so pale, shimmered like a million tiny wet pearls dancing in the mid day sun. Eyes so deep and green they matched the forest. I saw myself in them and our future together. I couldn't help it. He helped me up. For a moment I felt my embarrassment over my simple human reaction to witnessing an angel float down from the sky.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

I held an unconscious breath while I waited for an answer. He stayed quiet for a moment. His face filled with hesitation.

"I was walking across the field and saw you pass out. Are you ok?" he asked.

"No, I saw know my name," I said.

At this point I knew I sounded like a blathering idiot so I stopped talking. What if it was all in my head? The sky was beautiful and I was feeling a little light headed. Behind every logical explanation I gave myself was a tiny irritating mosquito buzzing around. It bit me with a single thought when it landed in my brain.

'I know what I saw.'

Oh how I hate those small itchy bites. They constantly nag and never go gently into the night. They fester, like all the other annoyances and doubts in my life. Still there was nothing I could say to make him tell me the truth. So I just smiled.

"I'm Elizabeth," I said,  reaching my hand out towards his.

'But then you knew that.'

When he took my hand, I felt my lungs fill with a quick breath. His hand was so warm to the touch it almost burned. I knew in that single second I would never want to let him go. What an odd feeling that was for me.

"I'm Samuel. Good to meet you," he said.

My dear sweet Irulan, if I could explain the feelings of love at first sight and how it works, I would. All I can tell you is my heart melted the second I met Samuel. I remember getting angry with myself for thinking about him all the time. I mean really, I was never the kind of woman who loved someone the moment I laid eyes on him. I always had a wall and who ever it was I dated never seemed able to get past it.

My heart raced, pounding so hard against my chest I was sure he could hear it. Oh dear god the humiliation of it all. I felt my cheeks tingle with a blush and I couldn't help but smile even more.

He walked me to my car. Had I paid attention, I would have realized he didn't have one. I was so busy trying to figure out what to say next, that nothing about my surroundings dawned on me.

Irulan, if you only knew how little I believed in miracles and superstitions then you would understand why I had a hard time wrapping my head around how I met your father. He was an angel sent from above to make sure you were born. I don't know why I was chosen to be your mom. I just know he loved me too. So much so it made it impossible for us to be apart.

There's so much more and I promise to tell you. Just rest assured your father loves the both of us.

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